Since I was sexually molested and nearly r/ped by an aggressive muscular girl when I was 16, I've found myself oddly attracted to them. Thin females just don't do it for me. They're too ordinary. During my first experience, I was scared and fought tooth and nail, so it nearly was r/pe. Since I seek to experience it again, it'll just be some wicked fun. Sadly, it's a fantasy I might never experience again. There are women who accept money for such fun, but who can afford them these days, right?